About seven years ago, I had some very basic questions, like:
- If Nanak Ji is supposed to be my Guru as a Sikh, then why are Kabir Ji and Ravidas Ji not my Gurus although their Gurbani (revealed spiritual wisdom) is also part of Guru Granth Sahib?
- If the Creator, who never takes birth (Ajuni), is the only true Guru, then why do we speak of the “ten Gurus”?
- What is the meaning of the term Wahe Guru?
- How is it possible that chanting the term “Wahe Guru” as the name of God (who is actually beyond names, Anam) will make me enlightened, when at the same time it is taught in the Gurdwaras (Sikh temples) that my Guru is only Guru Granth Sahib, and without following the Guru, salvation is not possible?
- How can I follow the Guru, when I am not understanding Gurbani at all?
I was already down. But when I got no proper answers, I became depressed. It got worse, and I became very ill-tempered. As a result, I started fighting with everyone. It got so worse that I got chronically ill with high blood pressure. It only used to come down to a normal level for a while after I had became violent. Through my behaviour, I was also isolating myself at home.
Then I started visiting Gurdwaras and so-called holy men (Sant) regularly to get answers to my questions on Sikhi and life. After six months of visiting every Sant, preacher (Parcharak) and Pathi (who do recitations of Guru Granth Sahib and work in a Gurdwara) in reach in North India, I still got no proper answers.
I was so frustrated that I finally decided to study other religions and gave myself six years for the same.
For three and half years, I studied what is known as Hinduism. I started visiting temples, shrines and saints asking questions about their gods, legends and practices. I even went as far as to learn astrology because I was wondering how a priest (Pandit) is said to be able to discover the Lord’s Will and predict the future. Even after three and half years, I did not get significant answers, and was still a frustrated person.
Eventually, I started learning about Islam. I visited various schools and Sufi shrines, mosques, Ulemas etc. I still remained in the dark.
Almost one year later, I saw Dharam Singh Nihang Singh Ji’s video on the YouTube channel of the Sach Khoj Academy by chance. My journey came to an end. I was impressed and thankful that finally someone was making sense and had proper answers to all key questions of life.
After listening to Vyakhya (explanations of Adi and Dasam Granth) for almost five months of the Sach Khoj Academy, I felt a change in myself. I learned to let go. I slowly came out of depression automatically. I started feeling happy and relieved.
Now for the last three years, I am listening to the explanations of Gurbani by the Sach Khoj Academy regularly, and I got the opportunity to meet Dharam Singh Nihang Singh many times.
Interestingly, Dharam Singh Nihang Singh is a Gursikh who stands above all man-made (religious) boundaries. He is not calling himself a holy person (Sant) and he is not creating any followers and has no Ashram or any other set-up. He does not earn any money in the name of religion, and accordingly, he lives a very simple life. He has no private life so he is always available for seekers of truth. Despite his age and extreme weather conditions, Dharam Singh Nihang Singh is always ready to travel for hours in local buses and trains to have dialogues which help creating peace and unity. I really feel that he is truly a part of Khalsa brotherhood.
I can honestly say that the changes I have seen in myself, the level of understanding I have now, make me and my family wonder whether I am the same man I was three years ago.
I now have overcome the anger I had in me, and the guilt I had in me to a very large extent.
I can truly say that Gurbani is right:
ਮੇਰਾ ਬੈਦੁ ਗੁਰੂ ਗੋਵਿੰਦਾ ॥ “Mera Baid Guru Govinda.” The wisdom of the only true Guru (Enlightener), is my doctor.